Better Man by Robbie Williams

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

sorry for my imperfect

Okay, this may not be that much of an issue, but sometimes my friends tell me that someone has been talking about me behind my back. I don’t even know if he’s telling the truth or not. Yes, it’s true that no one is perfect and I admit that I also have faults which make people uneasy. If they don't like something about me, why don’t they tell it to my face. I mean, if people hate me (maybe) for some reason, it is better if they tell it to me right away rather than making things complicated by hiding it from me and telling everybody about it. How do they expect ANYONE to change if they won't tell the person when something is wrong? *sigh* I know people will judge, but please if I have any flaw, do tell me. I wouldn’t angry or even deeply hurt, otherwise I’ll try to mull over on what I’ve done. BUT if people talk craps, bullshits and rubbishes behind me because of jealousy (sometimes, I notice that people are jealous of any stupid little thing), I just pray for them because I don’t want to stoop to their level. Personally, I think people who talk about other people behind their back in a bad way is just bored and have nothing better to do with their lives. Before I end, I apologize to all of you for being imperfect and please forgive me. TQ

I always keep these words of God in my mind;

"but now I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.." Matthew 5:44

congratulations!

I was so gay after the 21^st convocation of our IPG had done successfully. About more than 300 graduates which consisted of 4 groups (KPLI January intake 2009, KPLI June intake 2009, KPLI KDC Nov intake 2007, KEMAS May intake 2006) were received their diploma that morning. There were no lectures for 3 days because everyone was busy with the preparation of the convocation. Usually, the convocation is held in the hotel, somewhere in Kota Kinabalu, either Sutera Harbour or Beverly Hills Hotel.

I was not involving that actively during the convocation. I only involved in choir performance and duo singing competition. Firstly, the organizer told us that it was a compulsory participation and each option should take part in the competition. What the hell, when I was the one of the contestants. For me, it is good when the duets are a male and a female, so the vocals mixed will be harmony and strong. Nevertheless, regrettably, the women of my class were refused to take part although we had cajole them so many times. At last, Fred and I represented our class. Frankly, I was so nervous during that time because that was my FIRST experience. Singing competition is much different compared to other competitions that I have participated before and for sure I’m not becoming a boastful person but I love to try any new thing, because I believe that experience is the best teacher. “KALAU BUKAN SEKARANG, BILA LAGI?”, a simple and meaningful words that motivates me a lot. Thanks to Mr. Jame Alip, former director of my IPG and my senior. Before the competition, I saw my peers and rivals, each dealing with their nerves in their own way. There were those who in an attempt to put their fears out of their mind, made small talk with each other, and me joined them! However, no one knows when I kept on waiting for our turn, my heart pounds more fiercely. Finally, with the “My Love” song by Westlife, we won the second place. The wave of happiness and relief that washed over me was as comforting and as satisfying as a hot bath on a cold day. Thanks be to God.

Choir performance. Congrates to all the choir members. Vivace Forte is chosen as the name of the choir group. Praises and compliments were given to us after we did the performance very well. “All He Can Be” and “Semoga Kau Berjaya” songs had made each everyone of the hall ecstatic. So, I would like to congratulate Mr. Mait, our lecturer, Cyeka and also the members. Keep up the good work guys!

The convocation went on smoothly as planned. The director thanked to all who had made this convocation a huge success. When I saw the graduates put on the convocation robe, suddenly I wished to be like them. But degree is not my finishing, I will further and further. I still have 3 and half years to go before I become a teacher officially.

the graduates were entering the main hall

no words could come close to desribe how they felt

after their convocation

the Vivace Forte

"how can a man dreams too long..."

my future baby girl... lol

thanks a lot mr. Mait for the KFC, next time belanja lagi aaaa...

the future graduates... we're now still undergraduates... nasib sempat tapun ni baju hehe.

fool around

There is nothing much I can say about our last weekend. Hung out with my friend was much pretty fun and gratifying. Sometimes, we should live to the fullest otherwise we’ll miss the good things in life and there’s no chance to feel sorry anymore. Well, let some of the pictures describe how happy we were at that time.

breakfast

rehat2 dulu~

lunch

some of the fascinated drawings

GINTARO. smart gila lukisan dia beb...

"eh, where should we go now?"

CROCS. lama suda mau try ni slipper, finally dpt juga. it's so cute..

before we check out of the hotel, i managed to take my last shot in front of the mirror.

Selamat Hari Lahir

(karangan yang ditulis adalah berformat dan mengikut hukum BM)

Pada hari kelmarin, saya dan rakan-rakan telah meraikan ulangtahun kelahiran yang ke-20 rakan-rakan saya. Kami meraikan mereka yang lahir pada bulan Jun dan Julai secara serentak. Mereka adalah seramai lima orang iaitu Nana dan Asdar yang lahir pada bulan Jun serta Amirudin, Awang dan Bryan yang lahir pada bulan Julai.

Seperti biasa, mengikut tradisi kelas kami, sesiapa yang lahir pada bulan yang diraikan mereka haruslah bertanggungjawab membeli kek (sponsor) yang sedap. Selepas itu, kami akan menyanyikan lagu Selamat Hari Lahir versi Bahasa Inggeris secara ramai-ramai. Kemudian, sesi meniup lilin akan dilakukan oleh mereka yang diraikan. Akhir sekali, diikut sesi tapau-menapau kek untuk dibawa pulang kerumah setelah kek tidak dapat dihabiskan.

Kesimpulannya, kami berasa amat seronok kelmarin sebab dapat meraikan hari lahir rakan-rakan secra bersama-sama. Tiba-tiba, terlintas difikiran saya yang bulan Ogos nanti ialah bulan kelahiran saya iaitu pada 31 Ogos. Apapun, karangan ini amat susah dikarang bagi saya kerana opsyen saya Matematik di IPG dan tidak menekankan aspek Bahasa Melayu walaupun itu minor kedua saya.

tolong komen cikgu BM!

posed with the cakes hehehe

KFC will always be our venue to celebrate one's birthday. August will be coming and I'm wondering where will I celebrate my birthday with them?

their scrumptious cake. i really love the white chocolate cake. it's extremely yummy!

the birthday gangs. Asdar was not around at that time

Spain 1-0 Netherlands

nah kan... Spain won the FIFA WC 2010! i only watched the first half time, i fell asleep so i just let my little brother to tell me the result. during the first half time, the match was not that frantic, many yellow cards were raised. In short, the final was about attacking football and both sides tried to play the game the way it should be played. Before i sleep, i SMSed my adik, "i bet u Spain will win the match over Netherlands, 1-0. pecaya la ckp sya. hehe". Then, at about 5.00 a.m, i got a msg from him, "betul ba 1-0, Spain won. tapi tu pun last2 min ba..." Viva Espana! i was correct, and Paul also. Congrates to Spain and the team should also congratulate their rivals because Netherlands made it very difficult for them. To Netherlands, don't be gutted and devastated, you all gave it your best shot, but it wasn't to be. Some might say, when someone or a team move into the final, they are the winner, but it's undeniable when once you're in the final, you want to win it. To Netherlands, you still have time to hold the next world champion of FIFA WC, perhaps after 4 years in Brazil.

I have something for you to watch. Viva Espana! Waka waka, eh eh...

FIFA WC 2010

tomorrow, we'll find out who is the champion of FIFA WC 2010. time is accelerating so much, when it started on 11th of July and the final match will be held on 12th of July at 2.30 a.m. (Malaysia time). Don't miss the match and which country will you think become the title-holder of FIFA WC 2010?

Spain?

OR

Netherlands?

I bet you, Spain will be the winner and the trophy will also be theirs

However, don't forget about Paul and Mani, sometimes their prediction is correct. click here

allowance!

my friend told me this morning, "wui elaun kita sudah masuk!". Bah, thanks be to God lah walaupun i belum check my BSN account. Because as i have expected before, we can get our allowance before or by 10th. and i know it's about RM39++ per semester, so i need to manage my expenses wisely, otherwise i won't be able to save some of it. Nanti every week minta duit lagi dari PAMA (PApa+MAma), hehehe. Suddenly, things that i need to buy lined up in my mind.

1. Printer. i've decided to buy Brother Printer bcz kwn2 yg sudah ada, dorg cakap it really saves. my printer lama yg Cannon iP1880 pun tidak pernah guna cz the cartridges are so pricy baa. so mau beli yg trus 3-in-1 and ada ink-tank diluar. So, kira mau jual oh my Canon printer ni. Rm30 kah, masih baru kan lagi hehe. i don't care about the price.

2. Tennis racket. my sukan kokum for this sem is tenniskan, nah surely it costs hundreds.

3. Water heater. yang lama rosak sudah. bullshit oh!

4. Bag.

5. etc.

au po karati Sina

(entry is written in Sabahan language yg rusak2 and campur2)

sometimes kalau the Chinese communicate each other using their mother-tongue, then sya diam-diam seja, keep my mouth shut and then tanya dorg kunun apa maksud. Ei.. actually lama suda ba gia nie sya ni kepingin pandai Cina, it's ok and fine if i can't speak or write in Chinese, but at least i understand what they are talking about. Manalah tau kena umpat2 kah, nanti x tau apa maksud, senyum seja kunun... bukan ka bikin malu.. adidi... so, this is not the right time to blame my parents who did not send us (my siblings) to chinese school. Start from my sisters, then me, and finally my only lil brother, semua study di mission school; mula lah dari St. Anthony's Kindergarten, St. Anthony's Primary School and St. Anthony's Secondary School. usually, I feel regret bcz i can't even undertand it, siki-siiiiiiiikkkiiiitt bulih lah faham... tu pun yg budak2 punya... Now, sudah mau tua, it's not that easy mau blajar new language, apa lagi mau cakap Cina. My goodness! one more thing, if i jalan p mana2, either tamu, market, restaurant or everywhere, selalu kunun kena cakap cina. adui, bikin malu baa, last2 i will answer, "sorry auntie/uncle, i'm not a Chinese ooo.." then, they will just laugh and apologize. Pity me kan... i always ask myself, "chinese-look kah sya ni?" mcm tidak bah... hehe... however, whatever it is, i still need someone to teach me Chinese!

don't laugh.

When my lecturer asked me, “bah Ronald, juniors sudah masuk. Jadi apa lagi, cari-carilah. Ko kan handsome, confirm masuk punya.” I just gave them a laugh and denied them. Suddenly, I remember my previous entry that I had posted it into my previous blog. Therefore, I just reedit and repost it so that it will answer the question. Well, I have no special one currently or stick with someone, to share my happiness or even to celebrate my Valentine’s Day. After being deeply disappointed by her, I then turned to be alienated, and sometimes my mind often wandering off. Finally, I realized, I still have my valued family that I never cared of before. Now, I live my life to the fullest after someone had won my heart. I’m so sorry for the incommodiousness of my honest story but this is a sudden recall that takes place in my mind right now. By the way, I will keep on searching, the one who is sent by God and comes in front of me; hopefully. Hehe. Just kidding. Ok, let it go~~

For me, I used to express my love to my parents on that day. We will get together, sitting in the restaurant and enjoy the meals. No one is missing; absolutely. Tell my dad and mum as well my sister and my little bro, that I really love them, they are my everything; my all in all. Nobody can replace them. They are those who support me when I am in need; they are those who be my companions to talk and fight with and choose me as the listener of their daily-ramblings. Imagine that. However, it was before. And now, I miss all these things.

Sometimes, I do found someone, a girl that can make me ‘shivering’ when I talk to her. Hahaha. Nevertheless, presently, I am comfortable for being single (yui… kununlah… padahal…), well, with God’s will, I just let Him to decide.

Hari Guru and Kamatan-Gawai

After I binned all my emails, i noticed that I haven't post the entry about Hari Guru and Kaamatan Gawai bah... Last saturday, a history was made when 3 big celebrations (Teacher's Day, Pesta Kaamatan, Gawai Dayak) were celebrated at the Cafeteria. sebab rewiring process didewan belum siap due to the preparation for the upcoming convocation in July. well, although it was only a low-key affair and scaled-down event, and also not as big as in previous, tapi everything was running well and almost perfect. imagine la baru lepas urus MPPB KPLI and PPISMP June Intake for the whole week then terus majlis besar kena organize di cafe lagi tu buat julung2 kali. hahaha... btw, yg paling best was the Peragaan Busana Tradisional Sabah Sarawak. Excitement and exhilaration was vividly can be seen among the audiences. sempat juga bergambar dengan Unduk.

cantik.. one word to describe this girl....

represents Dusun Lotud of Tuaran

represents Rungus of Kudat

Represents semandak Kadazan Kiozou of Beaufort

Sis Carmel and i

Kath (Kadazan Penampang) and Chia (Bidayuh Sarawak)

pensyarah yg sporting

senyum....

Unduks dengan Raja Lawak Pensyarah IPG Kampus Keningau

stanley, the Director of the Programme with the Unduk Ngadau

the traditional dancers

Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baharu Jun 2010

I hope it is not that late to give a warm welcome to all new trainees of June 2010 intake. They consisted of PPISMP and KPLI trainees, and they are 119 altogether. I became the AJK taklimat for the whole week and actually they were three of us, so creditworthy was given to me to decide which one of us should be the MC during the day or night. Sometimes, I became the facilitator when the lecturer was not around. OMG, with the comfortless venue, we need to withstand and try to do the best during the MPPB. In short, I missed lots of lecture and lessons but I really enjoyed the busyness though.

sometimes i wish to have my own DSLR

LDK, the trainees seek advices from the lecturer

with them~

"tau takut kena kick out aaaa... hahaha"

with them~

"Mengumumkan ketibaan, bla... bla... bla..."

the closing ceremony of MPPB June 2010